Death really gets in the way of life….

Well my grandpa passed away Monday night. He was 76 and in failing health. I was lucky enough to be the last person to see him so I am so greatful I was able to tell him I loved him one last time. So needless to say it has been an emotional week that has felt like an eternity. the funeral is today and I am both happy and sad to be over with it. He was the very last family member I had that I’d known and loved as a child. To my own surprise I have still been eating well and walking a bit, though I have had a few drinks…and intend to have a few today. My friend Laura is arriving this morning from California to attend the funeral with me, which I must say is possibly the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me. Everything feels out of wack right now and I hate it. When its normal I am bored and when its out of wack I miss normalcy. Go figure. Bye Grandpa…Ill be seein ya.