I can pretty much say right now that today is gonna either be a way under calories day or a way over. I was exactly one day away from seven days on track…..

I went to orientation for my new job, after almost four hours there the owner checked my credit and let me know he would not be able to employ me. I couldn’t have been more caught off guard. Upon further inspection (he was nice enough to print me a copy of the report) I can see the massive shit pile my mother has smeared all over my credit. And that’s that I guess. I ate a big breakfast and planed my food today all excited cause I was gonna go to dinner to celebrate the new job tonight. So in about 40 minutes today I discovered I was in A LOT more debt than I thought. Had my excitement smashed, discovered gas went up $.20 while I was at the orientation, and drove some odd miles out of the way to run into the community college to get something only to realize they are closed for spring break I guess.

I know its not the end of the world, the gas station was a coincidence, and I should have remembered spring break, but I can’t help but feel so defeated by life today. I feel a bit a lot like an idiot for letting myself get excited. I shouldn’t have counted my pigeons before they hatched…or..however that goes…..