Sooooo, yeeeaahh, about that..

Once upon a time there was me. Fickle, all over the place big ol’ me. One day I started a tumblr about my life and getting it together. Since then its been all “this is awesome!” then it was all “eh, no mas” then I was like “no! I can do this!” and then I totally didn’t. Lamopotomus. So now I’m all like “get your ass back on that horse!” and here I am.

So on that note. I intend to begin posting again (again, again) haha. Plus I’ve got all this school work and I just would’nt be me unless I found a way to procrastinate while still wanting to be productive.

Death really gets in the way of life….

Well my grandpa passed away Monday night. He was 76 and in failing health. I was lucky enough to be the last person to see him so I am so greatful I was able to tell him I loved him one last time. So needless to say it has been an emotional week that has felt like an eternity. the funeral is today and I am both happy and sad to be over with it. He was the very last family member I had that I’d known and loved as a child. To my own surprise I have still been eating well and walking a bit, though I have had a few drinks…and intend to have a few today. My friend Laura is arriving this morning from California to attend the funeral with me, which I must say is possibly the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me. Everything feels out of wack right now and I hate it. When its normal I am bored and when its out of wack I miss normalcy. Go figure. Bye Grandpa…Ill be seein ya.

BATMAN!!!

So..I spend too much damn time at my laptop. I need laptop rehabilitation. Here are the finer points of yesterday:

work = got through it, pondering second job but know myself enough it will over come me. Will wait to see if I can afford lily’s extra curriculars..if not.. resume goes out.

Mother/daughter out of town for the weekend. Beautiful timing for relaxing weekend before school starts! Got some Hoegaarden beer because frankly…its awesome. Walked my ass off last night to earn the beer. Fuck yes!

MapMyRun is awesome. Already mapped walk for tonight. Excited for the sun to set….kind of want to go now, but don’t want to face the heat, also sent sunscreen with child and yes I know that makes me a dork for being unwilling to sunburn, but dammit..i freckle!!!

Now I make hemp bracelettes because I want to be productive. Scared to leave the house because I spend money…I do NOT want to spend money!

Michelle - So glad to see you still post here! When I come visit (soonish I hope) you need to show me this book of hair styles…so..soooo jealous.

ITSSS AAALLLLIIIIIIIIIVEE!!!!!!

And by “it” I mean me and by alive I mean…alive. haha. After a long rather self destructive vacation from life, I am back on bored. On ediets and pretty damn happy. As pointless and no good my little spurts of self destructivness are, one good thing comes of them from time to time. A bit of self awarness I suppose. I had tried ediets with great success as a teenager so I finally got some sense and joined again. Love it love it looooove it. So, two weeks in and doing better than I have in years I thought, hey, i should start posting on my tumblr again….